New Year, New Start

This new year started off well. I suppose it's the best, yet. Starting off with God being the first person to focus on at the strike of midnight was something money can never buy.

10 minutes to 00:00 hours, we prayed silently. I was somehow.. blank. I didn't know what to tell God, or what to pray for. My mind was blank, if not blank would be full of unrelated thoughts. I wasn't focussed.

Then a thought came to me, "Be patient and wait for what i have planned for you." Job 36. This verse I got during the Inside Out program at Doulos - It struck me again. Then I recalled 2008. From the start of 1st Jan till that moment 31st Dec. Too many memories flashed back. Sweet ones, bitter ones.. Happy memories, hurtful memories.. and tears flowed. I didn't know why tears ran down my cheek, but I knew it was a sign that I was willing to let go of the past, and look forward to future. And I lifted up 2008 to God, being assured that 2009 would be a great year with even MORE blessings!

Indeed 2009 is not a disappointment. It is a beginning of a new phase of life - older teen life. I just closed my previous chapter of young teen life. Being legal is not something everyone yearns to be, because responsibility comes in on you fully and decisions are made by ownself. Maturity is something one must have in order to survive the coming years.

Just symbolically, I started off my new life chapter with room cleaning. All the previous years of 'young teen life' stuff were taken all out and replaced with 'older teen life' stuff. It was a tough adjustment as the cleaning actually took 3 days (until today not totally finished yet!) and I thought, how long will I really need in real life, to adjust myself to this new phase?

I suppose new beginnings have new challenges. And new challenges ought to be harder than the previous years'. But that's the fun of it - to learn and grow in maturity. If one never face challenges, how would one ever grow?

For me, up to today 7th Jan, I have been entrusted with new responsibilities which I never encountered in my past years, and I can tell you all these will continue to shape me to be who I am supposed to be in future. These are all part of the training. Tough as it is, I believe only God can guide me through it.

I will update more on these, when I have 'spare' time from those responsibilities! =)


-little cup-