Recalling

Now is the season of reunion. Near and far, friends come back to visit those who are stuck in hometown. And would you look at them!

It's been only about 2 years that separation occurred. Recalling what happened approximately during 5 years ago, indeed time and place change things around. Not to say it is bad, but it's all part of growing up and building of personality. :) Somehow, glad to see the good changes.

Still, good old memories should remain. We should never forget our base. :)

That Piece in front

What's life without putting on the other piece?
The other piece that everyone has, that everyone embraces
That false piece
A shame.

What's life if the piece is changed?
A better life?
Happier, merrier and joyful surroundings?
The piece that kills it all
A murderer.

What's life when there's none of that piece at all?
The piece that everyone longs so much for
The piece that grants eternal freedom
indeed
The piece that hides all from naked eyes
The piece that no one can see
yet
What's life when all's torn away
when all's left exposed
when all's
out.

What would it be
for you.

Kept

With the current status, it would be best to stay put and keep safe.

Knowing what's outside yet staying in for the day, a new beginning.

A perspective.

all jumbled up

Hmm.

I feel like writing something yet at the same time I don't have a specific topic or issue to write about. Was viewing facebook and seeing more pictures of ASC coming in. Post-ASC gatherings and all.. are not just about the food. Neither are they about the people.. (though for most people, they would come back just to see each other and enjoy their company)

ASC ended 2 weeks ago. How fast. Seems all so 'dead' now that the BIG event just passed.. It's that time of the year where old boards will pass down (hand over) duties to the incoming new boards. Was observing one meeting at one school and it turned out fine to me, except the fact that I'm going there as an observer, no longer a member. A senior to share experience and to guide, no more to lean on others and grab hold. How things have changed.

Changes.

Known to only a few, the four of us have been selected to be stand-by-ers for the schools. Now that I announced it here, it won't be that different than usual ordinary flow...just an addition of 4 fishing hooks on the river bank. :)

Used to be fish, now a hook. O.o

Come to think of it, yea time really flew past me. It was as if yesterday I stepped into the new school for the first time. Now I'm out of it already. And moulded for more stepping-in-s. Will be attacking schools very soon so... watch out! (If you happen to know what I'm writing here, keep it to yourself first haha) I doubt you do. :D

Anyway, decision-making.. hmm. Another issue. I slept over it for so many nights yet couldn't make up my mind.... Hou fan ah. How I wish...

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Don't know what else to write about. So I'll end here and when something new pops out, might put them in here again. :)

Giving or Running?

That trip.

IS it just an excuse I'm giving, not to go? The signs clearly showing up in front of me.. NOT to go. Even the one who has the final say finally put forth his views. "Should let others go.."

Then there comes the latch. Contradictions. Encouragements. "If you don't go, how would you be trained?"

Dilemma.

Cooking up excuses, finding out pros and cons of going. Doing SWOT analysis. What to do???

:(

To decide in 3 days! Someone... I want a hug..

Getting Rest

It's coming to the end of June, the middle month of the year. How time flies. If felt for me, as if January was just yesterday. I must have been "dreaming" a little too much these few months.. Perhaps the hectic preparation for the ASC cum lectures cum work cum other commitments blew it off. Only today got to really stay home and rest. Felt different though, not 'on-the-go', so unusual.

Come to think of it, it's about time too. :)

It's been a while. When was the last time you actually take time to eat slowly and just savor the taste of food? When was the last time a trip to the beach was made and it was just you and nature blending? When was the last time someone called you out for a drink and there you stayed and talked until time was forgotten?

Work is important, but at times we should remember that the person working is even more important. For without the worker, there's no work done.

Think it's about time to just grab a chair, have a glass of leamonade and sit back; watch the world go by for just one day. The chilling out - heals.

Get rest, if you have not. :)

Rising Nerves

Usually I won't publish here what's going on at this very moment I am typing now.. but this post is exceptional. I'll just dump what's in me right here, right now. Just ignore me.

I'm getting very annoyed.

My laptop's urgh killing my patience. I can't help getting you for such a reasonable bargain and yet you befriend me this way. Reformatted you TWICE when I only had you for less than 8 months??!! Keyboard went haywire, lousy genuine test thing, keep swallowing my data, blocking my task manager, stupid viruses coming in even with kaspersky, lagging my head off. Ugh.

And one more. Eat my Adobe now I can't get my assignments done. Installed yet you stupidly refuse to accept such good offer! Kept corrupting my files! And still continue to lag my nerves till it got loose.. Strangle you!

...

Sigh.

Write about it also no use. Later this laptop angry shut down by itself, don't want to publish this post. What's wrong....??? Sigh.

Is it just me, or are things around me just happen to make me get irritated easily. With the end of my job in near future, and more work piling up for college now that deadlines are near and assignments not really done.... and there's an increase in demand for more service, for.. ahh. I'll just keep quiet.

Ever since that day, I have wanted to really go for it. Apparently all the CONS started coming in once I voiced out. This la, that la. Later this, later that. You cannot this, you cannot that. Ugh. Stupid la. Haih. Why. Of all times!

Then there's ... ah forget it.

Sien.

Say also no use. Won't make the world change. Apparently spilling out now and then to others already. Sigh. This shouldn't be happening.

Someone. Take it off.

Give me a break.

Letting Go

Upon hearing someone coming after the job I have been doing, it feels rather selfish to let it go.. off to someone foreign yet known.

Immediately when the caller ended the call, I knew it was time. But it's been so close to me, the environment of work.. something I wanted to put a stop to, yet with a heavy heart..

Sigh. Title seems so cliche.

Sometimes when in need to be at a certain place, something else pops out and crashes your planned event.. and both are of equal importance.. to stay put or to leave? Dilemma.

Currently listening to 'Proud of You' by Fiona Fung; can I really fly? Or is it really time for me to fly? I've been anticipating for this moment to open my wings and fly.. but it seems there's more sacrifices to make before I can really break free. So much for flying.. I can't let go just yet.

As the saying goes, Let go and let God.

Hmm.

Time.

Mist

All these while there has been a mist in front of me. Took for granted to ignore it, but it turned out to be more than a mist.

A mist can just be the waking of a dawn, or it might even be the beginning of a haze season. The consequences of both, you know it yourself.

Mine used to be just the beginning of dawn, something simple and serene.. Now it seems to show more danger signs in a way that haze is coming. In fact, it is already here. A little mistake to overlook it.

So dear friends, if you have mist experiences, do check it out. It might be just dawn or perhaps worse, haze. Let's hope for the first ya. Better be safe than sorry. :)

Credits to the owner of this picture.

To come in peace

For the many times we fail each other, we reconcile and make peace. Ain't that nice? (If we can do it ALL the time?)

When understanding comes our way, we feel that great feeling of relief, where we just 'sigh' and smile. Peace can never be achieved by only one person. It needs two people, at least to have it running down the stream.

Some people are just gifted in making peace - for that they are called peace-makers. I suppose we all can make peace too, especially in the little little squabbles or misunderstanding that come our way.

Also, at the same time we should make peace in order to have a more peaceful country, and peaceful citizens. Can't afford to have yellings and screamings of bad words all around our neighbourhood, can we?

But first, we need to make peace with ourselves. How? You know yourselves best. Please yourselves, just as how you would please your loved ones. I'm sure we deserve love and peace as much as others do.

Reality Check

"Get real, man. That's the truth. That's reality!"

Reality.

What's that?


Reality. A word. A hit. A slap on the face. A wake up call.

What's real in this world we live in? Us people? The things we have, those that we live with? The mind?

I wonder, at times when things do not go our way, we refuse to accept that as reality. We (dyingly) want to dwell in the scene where we hoped to be, hoped to live in, hoped to have. Despite its impossibilities. Why so, I can't understand.

Get back to reality. Some things are not meant to go our way, hence let it be. Let time play its part to fill in the desires of your heart, and one day - one day it will come. One day it will happen, just as you wished it to. The time will come. All it takes is a little patience. :)

Let's wait together ya.

Ignorance

You trailed after me when things went out of your way,
You scared me.

You looked at me with screening eyes,
You chilled me.

You sent me words that never belonged to you,
You caused fear in me.

You criticised and blamed those around me,
You made me develop the barrier.

You weren't happy when all those you've done were never returned,
You blamed me.

You never took it serious, lest when you did it was too serious,
You couldn't fit it on me.

You grinded your teeth when jealousy took over,
You added more bricks.

You were never sincere enough to tell me in face,
You made me walk the other path.

You told everyone about it but me,
You just ruined it.

I'm sorry I ignored you.
I'm sorry I wasn't reacting like how you expected me to.
I'm sorry I could not be the person you want me to be.
I'm sorry all these had to happen to you, but you're just not for me.
And I'm sorry I'm not for you.

I wish you the very best in your future undertakings. We can always be together, but not in such a way as you hoped it to be. I hope you understand.

End of ASC

ASC just ended. Everyone is writing about it. The people, the experiences, the events.. and everyone's missing it too. Hard to admit, but so am I.

I wouldn't write from Day 1 to Day 14, since most days had similar agendas. I would just share the summary from my own experience.

Overall, it was a memorable event. Awesome! (as Evelyn would term it), best LOC (as Asian team called us), Great! (as Kak Steph said). I myself would say, we are not the best LOC, but we just performed the very best we could by keeping ourselves focussed on God, and it turned out just fine, well, smooth. Praise God! Despite some glitches, miscommunication, minor problems here and there, we LOCs left an unforgettable memory in the hearts of our delegates, and we learnt a whole lot of new lessons from the delegates.

Through the many ups and downs, from the 40 days of Lent, entering Holy Week and finally facing Good Friday, the very much anticipated Easter came. The day when all things fell into places nicely, just as God planned them in the first place. Finally we stood on top of the mountain, enjoying the final view of the whole ASC after months of climbing and slipping now and then along the way. Thank you Lord. :) I'm just happy this offering is the best offering we could give to the Lord, and I pray we can give more in future!

To view photos, please find from facebook accounts of our Mutimedia Crew. To read more about stories from the event, please find from facebook, blogspot or multiply blogs. There are too many for me to list down, but I'm sure they're not too hard to find. :) There's a purpose for putting up links of 'people called friends' somewhere down there (scroll down), you know.

Thank you everyone for support and prayers! :) God bless!

ASC ends, but it's the beginning of something even more exciting! Are you up for it??