Two days ago, something happened at home. Dad and mum were away traveling so grandma and I were the only ones at home with the dog. It was a little after midnight when the incident happened... and I was terribly shaken by it.
Door lock opening, latches unlatched. I trembled, for once I felt the greatest fear I ever experienced.. and this incident left a deep mark. A very deep mark that I doubt will ever go away except haunt me back again in future..
A story to be told only to the known. A story.. no one will ever understand lest they themselves experience being in my shoes.
A story of life.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
4 Days and COUNTING down
ASC.............. 4 days to go!!
I'm excited. Are you? International event....when on earth would we, STUDENTS (mostly age ranging 16 - 21) have another chance to organize such GREAT event??
Come to think of it.. WAOW. Amazing how God works. Apparently now suddenly got free time to write something. Usually I won't have time to even go to toilet at times just for the sake of MSNing or eBUDDYing other LOCs. Haha.
Hmm.. what to say. I'm getting excited. :D Hehe.
Steph jie said to us coordinators: "We must go all out for it. In other countries when ASC is being organized, their full time coordinators and working teams are SENIOR COLLEGE STUDENTS and ADULTS. And us, we Kuching YCS organize this with a team of SECONDARY SCHOOL STUDENTS, coordinated by fresh school leavers. We have studies problem, tuition problem, transport problem.. parents.. exams... and they don't have AS MUCH problems as we do! Now that's what we should be proud of!!" That hit it. We are younger in age and lacking in experience, but we can do as good as others could, for it is the LORD who is working in us!!
What's impossible for him?? Nothing.
With all these motivation, affirmation, assurance and signs from God, why worry when it is GOD who's doing the work? We're only his hands and feet. Why complain and fear? Why not rejoice and be joyful for God is using US, specially CHOSEN for this event?
I'm so excited for this. I used to worry about the financial thingy....but now come to think of it, why worry when God will mutiply loaves and fishes, God will tranform water into wine, and God will provide donkey for entrance into Jerusalem.??
God is so good ~ Alleluia!
We are counting down the days.... and you won't hear from me until 2 weeks later. Hehe! Perhaps I'll even find time to write a few lines during the event itself! Sharing of God's glory. So LOCs, GEAR UP! For God's glory! :)
John 17:23 "With me in them and you in me, may they be so perfected in unity that the world will recognise that it was YOU who sent me and that YOU have loved them as you have loved me."
I'm excited. Are you? International event....when on earth would we, STUDENTS (mostly age ranging 16 - 21) have another chance to organize such GREAT event??
Come to think of it.. WAOW. Amazing how God works. Apparently now suddenly got free time to write something. Usually I won't have time to even go to toilet at times just for the sake of MSNing or eBUDDYing other LOCs. Haha.
Hmm.. what to say. I'm getting excited. :D Hehe.
Steph jie said to us coordinators: "We must go all out for it. In other countries when ASC is being organized, their full time coordinators and working teams are SENIOR COLLEGE STUDENTS and ADULTS. And us, we Kuching YCS organize this with a team of SECONDARY SCHOOL STUDENTS, coordinated by fresh school leavers. We have studies problem, tuition problem, transport problem.. parents.. exams... and they don't have AS MUCH problems as we do! Now that's what we should be proud of!!" That hit it. We are younger in age and lacking in experience, but we can do as good as others could, for it is the LORD who is working in us!!
What's impossible for him?? Nothing.
With all these motivation, affirmation, assurance and signs from God, why worry when it is GOD who's doing the work? We're only his hands and feet. Why complain and fear? Why not rejoice and be joyful for God is using US, specially CHOSEN for this event?
I'm so excited for this. I used to worry about the financial thingy....but now come to think of it, why worry when God will mutiply loaves and fishes, God will tranform water into wine, and God will provide donkey for entrance into Jerusalem.??
God is so good ~ Alleluia!
We are counting down the days.... and you won't hear from me until 2 weeks later. Hehe! Perhaps I'll even find time to write a few lines during the event itself! Sharing of God's glory. So LOCs, GEAR UP! For God's glory! :)
John 17:23 "With me in them and you in me, may they be so perfected in unity that the world will recognise that it was YOU who sent me and that YOU have loved them as you have loved me."
Thursday, May 28, 2009
Of Mineral Water and Coordinator
This morning was at college. For a reason to get mineral water bottle supplies from Coordinator. Apparently Miss Early was there already, alone. Went up to hunt for Coordinator but she went somewhere so decided to wait with Miss Early. :P
Then after the mineral water boxes were transfered, we had a friendly talk. It seemed that neither her nor us was happy with the separation. Spending 3-months together felt so short a time to know each other better, now that we won't have such great opportunity anymore. But one thing to be happy about is that she has finally chosen the right path in which she will enjoy and treasure most. Sad though it seems, but it's a door to a new walk of life. And for that we must rejoice.
Almost got her into tears, which would be a true witness to the bond we've built. Here's wishing you the very best, and with many thanks for a great experience.
Then after the mineral water boxes were transfered, we had a friendly talk. It seemed that neither her nor us was happy with the separation. Spending 3-months together felt so short a time to know each other better, now that we won't have such great opportunity anymore. But one thing to be happy about is that she has finally chosen the right path in which she will enjoy and treasure most. Sad though it seems, but it's a door to a new walk of life. And for that we must rejoice.
Almost got her into tears, which would be a true witness to the bond we've built. Here's wishing you the very best, and with many thanks for a great experience.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Don't know what title
Seriously I have no idea what to write. So many things happening these few days, and my brain's been working extra hours without complaining.. yet.
The Youth Easter.Rally 09 was AWESOME. The preparations were killing everyone but the result was so GREAT that we all rose from the dead in the end. So many things happened during the 3-days conference. It was really a start for greater things. Just the right timing. Thank you Lord!
In line with that, ASC is just.. a week away. O.o I would say most things are almost done, yet not done... A lot of final things to be finalized. Committees are not helping with slow replies and pending requests. Well, everybody's got work to do.. and we can only accomplish our work IF everybody works together... :) T-shirts are coming out from the shells but booklets are still in the eggs not ready to break the shell yet. Things to buy are yet to be bought. And for once my file is full in one day's printing of updates. But all the same, let's work together to make it happen for God's glory!
TC's another one. I'm actually starting to let go of it slowly. I shouldn't be holding on to it anyway. But the experience I got from working with different people here is definitely a memorable and priceless one. About time I stand my ground now..
Actually I have so many more things to talk about. Somehow I think I need to clone myself to do more work at the same time. Apparently now multitasking and shifting windows Alt-Tab Alt-Tab non-stop trying to figure out what else to write. Hmm. Will be busy off starting tomorrow until....14 June for the ASC. Hopefully will have enough consciousness and energy to go back to class on 15 June - and that I don't sleep in class.
Back to work! I'm losing a few kgs already from all the mental movements. Haha. O.o Hope I don't bore you with these blah-ness. :P
The Youth Easter.Rally 09 was AWESOME. The preparations were killing everyone but the result was so GREAT that we all rose from the dead in the end. So many things happened during the 3-days conference. It was really a start for greater things. Just the right timing. Thank you Lord!
In line with that, ASC is just.. a week away. O.o I would say most things are almost done, yet not done... A lot of final things to be finalized. Committees are not helping with slow replies and pending requests. Well, everybody's got work to do.. and we can only accomplish our work IF everybody works together... :) T-shirts are coming out from the shells but booklets are still in the eggs not ready to break the shell yet. Things to buy are yet to be bought. And for once my file is full in one day's printing of updates. But all the same, let's work together to make it happen for God's glory!
TC's another one. I'm actually starting to let go of it slowly. I shouldn't be holding on to it anyway. But the experience I got from working with different people here is definitely a memorable and priceless one. About time I stand my ground now..
Actually I have so many more things to talk about. Somehow I think I need to clone myself to do more work at the same time. Apparently now multitasking and shifting windows Alt-Tab Alt-Tab non-stop trying to figure out what else to write. Hmm. Will be busy off starting tomorrow until....14 June for the ASC. Hopefully will have enough consciousness and energy to go back to class on 15 June - and that I don't sleep in class.
Back to work! I'm losing a few kgs already from all the mental movements. Haha. O.o Hope I don't bore you with these blah-ness. :P
Friday, May 22, 2009
The Pre-WEEK
It is so near now.... and so many things happening. Just a while ago I met a lady and there was conversation between us and WHOLA she sponsored gifts for the event, of which I thought of buying. Praise God!
So what's with all this rushing and tense situations...?
WHOA. Big thing. International event, hosted by mostly unexperienced secondary school students and don't-know-what-to-do-at-first alumni YCS.
So what's this ASC? ASC is the highest decision making body for IYCS Asia. Once in 3 years, the student leaders of various national movements gather to decide on the orientation of the YCS movements in Asia.
And this time round, it's decided to have KUCHING to host such a grand event, of which will be attended by the Apostolic Delegate himself, coming as a representative of Holy Father the Pope.
O.O
I still can't believe such "little"state will be chosen..for such BIG thing... For those who humble themselves will be magnified, and those who magnify themselves will be humbled.. This verse is so true, though I can't exactly remember the verse.
But above all, this is for Him. This event - is His. Who are we to decide if we can have it going well, if we do not focus on Him?
It's a rushing week now. Prepare for everything with Plan B. Too many to list. Too much to write. I just pray everyone will be at their best health as we await the delegates and bring them closer to GOD through our preparations and joy in doing it!
For all glory is for Him. :)
So what's with all this rushing and tense situations...?
11th International Young Christian Students (IYCS) Asian Session & Council (ASC)2009
first-time ever to be held in SARAWAK, in KUCHING by KUCHING YCS.
WHOA. Big thing. International event, hosted by mostly unexperienced secondary school students and don't-know-what-to-do-at-first alumni YCS.
So what's this ASC? ASC is the highest decision making body for IYCS Asia. Once in 3 years, the student leaders of various national movements gather to decide on the orientation of the YCS movements in Asia.
And this time round, it's decided to have KUCHING to host such a grand event, of which will be attended by the Apostolic Delegate himself, coming as a representative of Holy Father the Pope.
O.O
I still can't believe such "little"state will be chosen..for such BIG thing... For those who humble themselves will be magnified, and those who magnify themselves will be humbled.. This verse is so true, though I can't exactly remember the verse.
But above all, this is for Him. This event - is His. Who are we to decide if we can have it going well, if we do not focus on Him?
It's a rushing week now. Prepare for everything with Plan B. Too many to list. Too much to write. I just pray everyone will be at their best health as we await the delegates and bring them closer to GOD through our preparations and joy in doing it!
For all glory is for Him. :)
Thursday, May 21, 2009
Focus
It is true that when the biggest wave hits you more and more, you lose your balance and fall into the water. And that somewhat killed your spirit to get up and stand there being hit again.
Having to focus on a single goal is not as easy as to work towards that goal. To focus is just one action; to work towards it involves many processes and actions, all of which changes in time.
I used to be able to focus on doing things very well. Lately being swept away by the waves, I couldn't find my legs and the ground to stand on. My mind travels at its own will, something very extraordinary I found out. :)
However, with the upcoming bigger wave hitting the shore, I am still trying to stand still and watch it sweep up instead of sweep me up.. I suppose all I need is a little reminder to focus on the ultimate purpose and goal instead of dispersing my mind. And I think many others need that too.
A reminder.
Having to focus on a single goal is not as easy as to work towards that goal. To focus is just one action; to work towards it involves many processes and actions, all of which changes in time.
I used to be able to focus on doing things very well. Lately being swept away by the waves, I couldn't find my legs and the ground to stand on. My mind travels at its own will, something very extraordinary I found out. :)
However, with the upcoming bigger wave hitting the shore, I am still trying to stand still and watch it sweep up instead of sweep me up.. I suppose all I need is a little reminder to focus on the ultimate purpose and goal instead of dispersing my mind. And I think many others need that too.
A reminder.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Finding Strength
In the midst of everything rotting away and tumbling down, there is yet one person to call for help.
God.
Seems very selfish to only find Him in times of need, but God, you know our rising and our falling. You know us, and You will provide strength.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Phil 4:13
When everyone and everything is lost, you will find them Lord.
Come people, rise up.
God.
Seems very selfish to only find Him in times of need, but God, you know our rising and our falling. You know us, and You will provide strength.
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Phil 4:13
When everyone and everything is lost, you will find them Lord.
Come people, rise up.
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