In the Calm..

In the calm.. of Your presence, I am listening Lord....

This song struck me today as I read a friend's blog. I have been having a very crazy 2 weeks, rushing over 2 assignment reports, 2 presentations, 2 friends in my group. I think I even rushed God to "do good" to me. =.=

With the upcoming trip, life was even more not pleasant. So much to finalise and everything had to be done there and then. So much for seeing light amidst darkness.

Yesterday was the presentation, 2-4.30pm, 5.15-7.20pm. A whole long day indeed. My group was the first, and being typical me- always getting the "First" lot. So we kicked off everything. I would say, I am very proud of my teammates, for they gave their all despite the language barrier, despite the many glitches - they were serious about being in a team, and doing their best for the team. :)

Rushing for RCIA Mass - Presentation of the Creed, I arrived 2 minutes before it started, much to Fr Albert's astonishment that I was almost late. I was grateful I did not crash anyone during my drive from college to Church. Haha.

Rushed for EMMM meeting after that, to know that meeting was ending. -.- My college mate resisted attending meeting after nights of endless assignment rushing. It was a day of fast. Lol. Adrenaline rush, he said. Haha. 'Cause immediately after we're done with our presentations, we felt hungry and tired. Hmm..

Amidst all the happenings, be it of my will or not, I felt God's presence in the people around me. I actually trusted my whole presentation day to him, knowing he would put words into my mouth when I forget what to speak about. It was difficult to trust the whole morning, because I was so tired from the previous night and weak as I was, my human side told me to strive harder and work from my self limits. But God was all so amazing, to grant me a Spirit-filled stomach, mind and soul. He was amazing, to the extend that I said "I am presenting for the Lord, and I will present my best for the Lord." Knowing he is standing beside me always, I trusted. And HE never failed my trust.

All glory to the Almighty KING!

As the week died down a little, the trip will continue to boost up the confidence that God does not stop working just in my study life. He will journey with us and I pray and trust, that he will use us, his unworthy instruments for the salvation of all!

Time to sit still. Care to join me? :)

Over Pastry and Chinese Tea

Picture - google search.

The week has been very hectic. Time was not on our side, and the ball never stopped rolling; it was nerve-wrecking.

As I sit here over cream puff and chinese tea, it feels nice to put life on hold for one moment. To spend time with beloved ones and just chill over laughter and smiles.

One more week before the big event. Let's pray all things go well, as God wills.

For I know the plans I have for you, plans that will not harm you but will prosper you and give you a future with hope. (Jer 29:11)

Ready to Leave

Ever had a phase in life to move on and leave the past behind as it is? Hmm.. I've never actually been in that phase, but coming soon is the preparation to leave.

Leaving to where? No idea. But I'm leaving my past.

It's a tough decision to make that made us chose this path. The balance of benefits for all parties, the fine line to draw for all. I don't figure myself being excited to leave, as that was how and where I became who I am now. I dislike going out, away from the "mother's wings" as people term it, but life has to move on.

And so, 3 months perhaps; I shall leave.

A new phase of life. A new outlook on living. A new me?

Embrace the change, endure the toughness, enlarge the view of life.

Move on~!

When time is not on our side

As time passes, I begin to acknowledge its presence and how it plays such importance in a person's life. Without time, who are we and what are we?

When we are so free, when time just ticks past without us realising, how beautiful it is to just be carefree and all about our own world.

When time hits us in the face and sticks the note "You're late!" be it for an event, for work or simply anything, we rush for time. When all the while: time has been there - ticking at the same pace!

Time has always been fair; it is us who have paid less attention to it, hence the struggle we face at the end of the day. The "I wish there's more time.." phrase will be ringing through the air.

So when time is not on our side, let's make the best of it while we still can. Before time runs out. For real.

Careless

The week was a really holiday break. Life practically stopped just for the fun of the festival and I forgot about everything else except living the best of the week.

And of course, the consequences that come with it.

Somehow too long a break can reduce the effeciency of the brain and I end up being very careless with almost everything which lead to dissatisfaction of mind.

With the currect change in the cycle of life (supposedly new year has begun), productivity is to be enhanced. Less of the bad, and more of the good.

The future, I can't predict. But all I know is that someone's holding me to face it. With that, I trust and live in faith.

Valentine's + CNY

Who would have thought - 14 Feb: such memorable day for lovers and Chinese folks. Not to forget the birthdate of many friends I know of born on that date.

I recall few years back while in high school of which Valentine's Day was the most anticipated day (aside school holiday breaks), and as it's not a co-ed school, even higher anticipation when certain people walked into classrooms and called out names to receive gifts.

I believe Valentine's Day is not just about lovers buying gifts for each other. Even friends can honour each other's friendship by simply acknowledging their presence. Simple meals to remember the first time friendship was made, the happy and sad memories spent together, and so forth. Not to forget, it can be a day to surprise parents with an extra taste of love in everything we do. :) Somewhat similar to Father's and Mother's Day. It's simply a day to love.

Chinese New Year: the year of the tiger. Roar. Not that it has any significance to me, it's just another year in the chinese calendar where prosperity is hoped to flow and blessings showed from on high. This year CNY will be rather quiet with less people around, relatives and friends all going off for holidays/studies. (I agree with leaving for holiday - since economically, it is heading downwards.) Sometimes a quiet new year to spend with close ones is much memorable. :)

So how's it going to be? As the date draws nearer, let us celebrate - with LOVE! :D

Happy Valentine's Day!

and

Happy Chinese New Year!!

What next

With the recent theft case to kick start 2010, aside from turning a year older, it was rather ridiculous to get me down on my seat the whole time.

The case brought me so down that life felt some fear and injustice. What came next was nerve-wrecking, madness.

The thought of being kind was pushed, the heavy weight of responsibility crowned upon. Who else would have felt that would be next. Changes.

Life was not good, but it was never that bad. Optimism.. call on it and it will return to serve you. Hard as it is, one moment to cherish - one season to cheer.

The sun never fails to rise each new day, so does God never fail to love the sinner no matter how he hates the sin.